I don’t like rules. Especially when it comes to God.
God gives me love and grace. For free. I don’t have to follow any rules for Him to love me.
But this free love, it came at a cost. Not costly for you and me. But costly for God. He gave Himself. Sacrificed Himself. Suffered immensely. For our free grace.
So how can I know this about my creator, and not be moved? Not want to change something within myself? I was given a gift, and I can do with it whatever I want. But the thing is, I want to give back. I want to take this gift it multiply it.
I want to sacrifice.
Do I? Maybe I don’t. Sacrifice is hard. I like to do what I want. Sometimes I want to do good things. Jesus’ love type of things. But sometimes I like to do selfish things. Make me feel good no matter what type of things.
But I want to follow Jesus. I want to love like Him. I want people to know of His love. I want people to know that faith isn’t about being put-together. Sometimes it’s about being broken. I am broken. But I am loved. And I have ridiculous joy and hope.
So how do I sacrifice? How do I give up these things so engrained in me?
I’m thinking about self-discipline. But not about rules.